Suffering
By
Years ago
while sleeping; I clamped down on my teeth in my sleep and broke a tooth which
really hurt. I said, “Lord why did you
allow me to break a tooth in my sleep.”
The Lord said:
“So that you can
participate in My suffering.”
A painful
nerve disease called Shingles.
In 1973
my mother came down with shingles, which is a painful nerve disease. I started fasting to see if I could get the
victory for my mother through prayer and fasting. On the 6th day of
my fast, on nothing but water, I had a picture of myself laying hands on
someone. I heard a voice that said: “prayer
without fasting has no authority”. I knew the Lord was
telling me to continue fasting. On the
15th day of my fast on nothing but water my mother was healed of
shingles.
I am
going to tell it just like it is.
After the
community made the Covenant in 1973, they formed household share groups. After
five years or so, most of the share groups in the community had broken up. At this time there were four shares groups that
started from our household group. There
were as many as 45 people meeting in our home for prayer and scripture
study. In 1978 or 1979 the leaders of
the community made the decision to ask one of the elder of the Community to
move to
Encounter
with angels
I have
had many visions and encounters with angels.
They touch me to wake me up to pray or when I fall asleep while praying.
Two angels appeared to me in a dream and told me that I was not to leave the
Community. I told them I was leaving the
Community. Both angels grabbed me and said
you are going to stay in the Community.
I said, “OK, OK, OK”. I was told
that if I stayed in the Community the Lord would bless me beyond anything I can
imagine.
I
cultivated my anger for three years which caused me to have intense pain up and
down my back and neck. I could not turn
my head. I had to turn my whole body to
turn my head. I had problems getting in
and out bed and turning over in bed.
There was no peace in my body. I
went to a Chiropractor. He told me that
I had a heredity situation that I was going have to learn to live with it. Walking away from his office the scripture
Romans 8:26 came to me about praying in the Spirit for our infirmities – that
the Spirit makes intercession for our infirmities according to the will of God
when we do not know how to pray.
Romans
8:26: Like wise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what
we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for
us . . . KJV
I have
been a daily Communicant since Lent of 1970.
I have fasted from two to five days each week on coffee or water for 28
years. I have spent two to three hours
in prayers every day since 1970.
I made the decision to pray five minutes in the Spirit for
20 different intentions including my neck and back every day. This is 100 minutes above my two to three
hours of regular prayer time each day.
After a month and half, I was able to turn my head and the pain was
comfortable. Because I was tired of
spending so much time in prayer above my regular prayer time, I quit praying in
tongues every day. A year or so later,
I started praying in tongues again for all of my intentions. After another month and half, I could freely
turn my head with no pain or discomfort.
Now what is interesting
is that even though I continued to spend two to three
hours each day in prayer, continued going to daily Mass and fasting every week,
the healing in my neck and body did not continue until I started praying in
tongues again. If it had
not been for the gift of tongues, I would be in intense pain today.
I believe
the Lord wanted to really encourage me to pray more often in tongues. The Lord
told our prayer group that we do not know what a gift He has given us to pray
in tongues.
St. Paul
said even though he did not know what he was saying when he prayed in tongues,
he thanked God that he prayed in tongues more than anyone. Paul wished that we all prayed in
tongues. I try to spend at least 15
minutes every day praying tongues. The
Spirit makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God when we
pray in tongues.
Deep Anger
A friend
of mine had deep anger and serious medical problems. I told him he had to repent of his anger and
his resentment. Finally he told me that
he had repented of his anger and resentment.
I asked the Lord if he had repented of his sins the Lord said,
“Yes!”
I said
Lord: the scripture says if you confess your sins, you are faithful and just to
forgive us our sins and that you will cast our sins into the depth of the sea
to never be remembered again. Since he
continues to suffer, it is like you are remembering his sins. The Lord said, “No!” When he repented of his
sins, I lifted him out of a vat of dye and saved him from drowning. The stain of the dye remained on his skin. The stain can only be removed by prayer,
fasting and suffering.
Our sins
are forgiven when we go to confession and repent for our sins. Though our sins are forgiven, we still have
to make reparations for our sins. Reparation comes through prayer, fasting and
suffering. Fasting is a form of
suffering. It is extremely important that we ask the
Lord to help us to remember, repent and make reparation for all of our
sins. Satan has no authority over sins
that have been repented for but he does have authority over sins that have not
been repented.
Cancer
When my
mother came down with cancer in 1984, I told Satan that I was going to turn
heaven and hell upside down to get the victory.
During my fast, I was viciously attacked. The first seven days it was like I had
something caught in my throat. I could
drink water and it passed through but there was no relief. I had severe cramps and pain that jumped from
one part of my body to another. On the
seventh day of my fast the power of God came down real strong at an all night
prayer vigil here at
Prostate
Cancer
In 2014 I
went to my doctor for a check-up. My PSA
was 25. A second PSA showed 24, and a
biopsy was positive for prostate cancer.
I knew I had what I considered mild resentment. Any mild resentment can open us to be
attacked by Satan.
I
repented for my sins, and then Ann and I went on two separate three days fast
on nothing but water for a total of 12 days.
I went back to my personal physician and told him that I wanted another
PSA test. He asked, “Why!” I told him that my wife, Ann and I had just
come off a 12 days fast asking the Lord to heal me. I told him that I have faith that the cancer
is no longer there. If the cancer is no
longer there, the PSA should drop. The
doctor said if the PSA dropped, he will start fasting tomorrow. The PSA did drop from 25 to 1.3.
My
urologist did not believe I was cancer free.
He ran a bone scan and a cat scan two times a
year apart. There was no evidence of
cancer. It took three years for my urologist to tell
me that he was not treating me for cancer, that he was treating me for an
enlarged prostrate. I do not know why he
said that as he had previously told me that my prostrate had greatly
shrunk. I believe he wants to keep me as
a customer.
Suffering
Suffering is a form of
reparation.
Reparation comes
through prayer, fasting and suffering.
Some prayers cannot be
answered without fasting.
I urge each of you to:
1. Understand that your sins are forgiven once you repent for
them at reconciliation.
2. But- Reparations are required to wash away the stain
caused by sin.
3. Lift up your suffering small and large for your own sins
and the sins of others.
4. Increase your daily
prayer time.
5. Spend more time praying in tongues daily.
6. If you have not
received the gift of tongues, pray for the gift.
7. Add fasting to your
prayer arsenal.
8. I have found that
fasting gets the Lord attention real quick and that my prayers are answered
quickly when I fast.
My mother was healed of shingles,
and cancer and I was healed of prostate cancer through prayer and fasting. In my book “Seven Vital Truths for God’s
Children”, you can read of the numerous healings and victories that I received
through prayer and fasting.